Oh hey, deviantART.

I seriously doubt that anyone is still paying any attention to me. But I stumbled back onto my page and got hit with the usual nostalgia attack. DA has so many issues but I guess I still miss it.

I said something in one of my last journal entries (which was actually from 2007... daaaamn) about how I had traded artistic inspiration for love. I also said it was a worthwhile sacrifice. These things were not true. Some amazing things have happened to me since then, and I have learned.

That boy was bad for me. He didn't understand. He sapped away my creativity because he could not appreciate it.

I got stuck for a while.

But now I've found new love, real love. He's a dreamer, he sees the world like I do. And everything is beautiful.

He encourages me. I'm writing my book again. I'm getting really serious about photography. I may even start drawing and painting again.

Took a photography class this semester and worked with medium format film for the first time, and it was bliss. I guess I actually have two new loves, my dreamer boy, of course, and an old Mamiya C330 twin lens reflex camera. Hopefully I can find a scanner big enough for 11x14 paper, so I can scan my prints.

This school year has been really hard, with messy breakup + new relationship + hardest classes so far of my college career + figuring out what the hell I actually want to be in life. But it's summer now. I made it.

Look for me in the near future. I mean it this time, guys. There was a time when I sincerely believed that I could live without art in my life. That time is over.

Love.

-Jillian

(ps I would love to get back in touch with anyone who's still around.)





Flickr (temporarily on hiatus until I get monies to renew my pro account...) - [link]